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nineteen | 十九岁 | dix-neuf

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welcome to the study and, more generally, me! this is my home away from home, a place where i can be me in my entirety without restraint. go back.

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Golden Buddha statue in a card.

Sūtra: I am fond of Dhammacakkappavattana Sutta~ (not a sūtra, but Milindapañha is also very good!)

Poster of Everything Everywhere All At Once in a card. Scissor-grinder cicada in a card. Mourning dove in a card. Cover of Young Mungo by Douglas Stuart in a card. Amber Gray as Persephone in Hadestown in a card. Poster of OMORI in a card. Poster of Pearl in a card. Cover of Preacher's Daughter by Ethel Cain in a card. Christina's World by Andrew Wyeth in a card. Low-poly version of Aromatisse in a card. Poster of Dungeon Mesh in a card.

Film: Has to be Everything Everywhere All At Once; I'm a huge fan of surrealist works and it's story is just so beautiful-- absolutely deserves all its flowers! Close second, though, is Portrait de la jeune fille en feu. That ending sequence... wow.

Bug: I love scissor-grinder cicadas!! They remind me of childhood summers, windows open with a soft breeze drifting through the house, their songs filling the air. They heralded both the summer's beginning and its end-- I always secretly mourned when their songs stopped.

Bird: Mourning doves! They, too, are a fond staple of my childhood, with their calls being ubiqutous to a warm morning. I think they are rather beautiful and graceful and I appreciate their melodies.

Book: Young Mungo by Dougla Stuart. Basically make Romeo & Juliet gay, in 1980s Edinburgh, and even more of a sob fest. I hope Mungo and James made it :(

Musical: Hadestown! I've loved this musical ever since it was on Off-Broadway and always makes me go misty eyed. Amber Gray my dearly beloved <3

Video game: OMORI!! I know the game gets a lot of flack, but goddamn it I think going into it blind makes it SO amazing and it made me cry which makes it highly ranked in my books.

Horror: I'M A STAR!!!

Album: Preacher's Daughter by Ethel Cain is, in my opinion, one of the greatest albums ever made and my opinion of someone will entirely change depending on their reaction to it.

Painting: Christina's World by Andrew Wyeth films me with a sense of bittersweetness that I can't describe.

Pokémon: Shoutout to HealerFluff the Aromatisse for carrying me single-handedly through all of Pokémon Y as a kid 🙏

Anime: あ。。。ダンジョン飯。。。おダンジョン飯。。。

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[The following texts are an excerpt of the Roṇḍrōza Recitation, kindly translated from the original K'aci to English and republished, with permission, from the Bloomington Dream Society. Prior the BDS efforts, there has been zero scholarship on the fascinating folklore of the K'aci people and their culture; no where is this more evident than the famous Roṇḍrōza Recitation. Most likely composed in the Caucasus and whose date is the subject of active debate (having words of Malay origin pushes the text to be of later origin, probably towards the collapse of the culture in the 18th century), it is the most preserved work of K'aci literature. It's frame story is between Yuṣoda, a householder who lives alone in the mountains but occasionally sells woodcarvings, and Myēni, a pilgrim to the Temple of Khaxān. It is the harshest winter in ages and Myeni's young age (atypical of pilgrims to Khaxān), along with his lack of knowledge in the customs relating to pilgrims, confuses but entices the similarly aged Yuṣoda. The two men begin a Roṇḍrōza, a ritualized form of storytelling over a hot-pot equivalent and alcohol. As they discuss matters relating to the creation of the world, local gossip in neighboring towns, nightmares, and erotic adventures, the two begin falling in love with each other. The Roṇḍrōza Recitation ends after the blizzard lets up, with Myēni continuing his journey, but promising to return eventually.

The Roṇḍrōza Recitation is long, consisting of over 100 stories (all of varying length; the War of Wars is longer than all the other stories combined). As such, below are ten stories from the Roṇḍrōza Recitation, in hopes that it sparks interest in learning more about the Satí. These stories are "The First Roṇḍrōza"; "The Monster of Hjar Village"; "An Old Pilgrim Dies"; "Creation of the World"; "Lahṭhuṭ is Beheaded"; "Caw Conspires with the Gods"; "Khaxān Builds His Temple"; "The Pious Demon"; "Bëcel's Garden"; and "Discovering the Adultress" (a non-Recitation story).

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Section of the painting Roses of Heliogabalus